time is short for my house. i think that i will be more than happy to live by myself for a bit but i will miss my house mates, it occured to me today.i will learn to get over it eventually.

catch up

so since the last time I was on here, i have turned 24. that really is no big deal anymore. didnt mean for that to rhyme but it did. oh things are kind of craz these days. as usual, i am running around he place wondering about my life and where it is heading or what will become of me in the next few years. i am all about living in the moment these days. i am happy that this summer some of the most important people in my life will still be here. without some friends around it would be unbearable. i am over these mediocre friendships, i do not think i can even classify them as friendships other than meaningless jibber jabber with people i really could give a fuck about. i mean cool talk once in a great while and let me know information about yourself and then lets get on with our lives shall we? im over it. i just want these next couple of weeks to be memorable, not in the sense like we have to do something ferosh and awesome just something that will make me want to fly on the wings of music.

my birthday....

is in 2 days. i will be 24.
shit.

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i have come to a stopping point in my life. More like i had an epiphany today. I am kind of done with this whole place. Granted i love everyoe that i have met here, well almost. Iam just not the type of person that can stay in one place. I know that my home base is here but i mean how will i fully uderstand who i am or what i want if i just decide to limit myself to one area on this planet? I have traveled in my lifetime yes but, i have always ended up in the same place i have always been.
gone are the days of knowing what my day to day life is going to be. I am ready to try different things and to meet different people.....

didnt get my drink on,

ok so usually on tuesdays, i go over to a friends' house and proceed to get wasted. it really isnt about that i am realizing. I enjoyed a night without partying and it was tangible. oh me oh my, i think i could be taking a step back to partying. I am kind of over smoking as well...just found out,believe it or not, it is bad for your health. weird i know. im over it.

am i mean?

The story here is as follows.
night before last i through a bday party for a friend of mine and decided that if he were to invite only the people he wanted there it would be so. i forgot that our house was indeed the "party" house. Anyways more people than we bargained for show up. I in turn get super pissed and have to say something, it rhymed with get the fuck out of our house. so everyone left and then our group of friends went to another house and continued what we sought out to accomplish. that was night one
night two
it was at another friends house and we had a party. freshman kids showed up and like always, they huddled together and were "those" kids. i decided that two night of this is enough,so i took it upon myself to let them know what was up. i infiltraded their safezone and turned all the music off. mind you this is not my house, i then made them all stand up and introduce themselves because they obviously would not do it themselves.so they all stood up and did as they should. Stern and forward yes,mean?

steamed carrots and rice

well tonight i got the best gift ever. no not that but something close to it. I got to talk to my boo bear. it was over skype so it made for good times. i thought about how much i miss her and how i wish i could share adventures with her. I know there will be plenty of time for that in the future so i can wait for now.
so tonight is he night where i am able to eat fast food. I allow myself to partake in the consumption of fast food once a month. where did i go? well like all bad choices, i decided to go to the golden arches. i know i shouldnt have but alas i decided to let my demons run rampant and control me. i endulged in disgusting yet satisfying food. side note. dont let me do that again. I ordered a 10pc nugget meal and a dollar burger. wow I wonder why i have weight issues.
so steamed carrots and rice.....I have decided, that after that meal and earlier tonight while talking to tracie, i consumed 12 twizzlers and i think i should have diabetes now or something. I mean really? I have the eating habits of a dirty, no respect for myself, hands down my pants kind of guy, I am going to do away with the whole going out to eat thing and just eat healthy. I have even stopped smoking. well not entirely. i have one a day now and I am not bringing them to work with me anymore. Danny is helping me quit and I am doin the same in return. i will overcome this also!