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i have come to a stopping point in my life. More like i had an epiphany today. I am kind of done with this whole place. Granted i love everyoe that i have met here, well almost. Iam just not the type of person that can stay in one place. I know that my home base is here but i mean how will i fully uderstand who i am or what i want if i just decide to limit myself to one area on this planet? I have traveled in my lifetime yes but, i have always ended up in the same place i have always been.
gone are the days of knowing what my day to day life is going to be. I am ready to try different things and to meet different people.....

didnt get my drink on,

ok so usually on tuesdays, i go over to a friends' house and proceed to get wasted. it really isnt about that i am realizing. I enjoyed a night without partying and it was tangible. oh me oh my, i think i could be taking a step back to partying. I am kind of over smoking as well...just found out,believe it or not, it is bad for your health. weird i know. im over it.

am i mean?

The story here is as follows.
night before last i through a bday party for a friend of mine and decided that if he were to invite only the people he wanted there it would be so. i forgot that our house was indeed the "party" house. Anyways more people than we bargained for show up. I in turn get super pissed and have to say something, it rhymed with get the fuck out of our house. so everyone left and then our group of friends went to another house and continued what we sought out to accomplish. that was night one
night two
it was at another friends house and we had a party. freshman kids showed up and like always, they huddled together and were "those" kids. i decided that two night of this is enough,so i took it upon myself to let them know what was up. i infiltraded their safezone and turned all the music off. mind you this is not my house, i then made them all stand up and introduce themselves because they obviously would not do it themselves.so they all stood up and did as they should. Stern and forward yes,mean?

steamed carrots and rice

well tonight i got the best gift ever. no not that but something close to it. I got to talk to my boo bear. it was over skype so it made for good times. i thought about how much i miss her and how i wish i could share adventures with her. I know there will be plenty of time for that in the future so i can wait for now.
so tonight is he night where i am able to eat fast food. I allow myself to partake in the consumption of fast food once a month. where did i go? well like all bad choices, i decided to go to the golden arches. i know i shouldnt have but alas i decided to let my demons run rampant and control me. i endulged in disgusting yet satisfying food. side note. dont let me do that again. I ordered a 10pc nugget meal and a dollar burger. wow I wonder why i have weight issues.
so steamed carrots and rice.....I have decided, that after that meal and earlier tonight while talking to tracie, i consumed 12 twizzlers and i think i should have diabetes now or something. I mean really? I have the eating habits of a dirty, no respect for myself, hands down my pants kind of guy, I am going to do away with the whole going out to eat thing and just eat healthy. I have even stopped smoking. well not entirely. i have one a day now and I am not bringing them to work with me anymore. Danny is helping me quit and I am doin the same in return. i will overcome this also!

drunk at the advocate

tonight I waltzed into the advocate drunk as a skunk. it was glorious and i probably made some people uneasy. I though it was fun though.i decided that drinking brandy and coke was a good idea. I didnt know that when you mix the two it made kerosene but hey it got the job done. I have come to the realization that tuesdays will from now on be the night that i screw up my liver. Weeeeeeeee right? ok so anyways. i might need to pass out soon! I think that I might break.

long ass day

ok so today was a pretty productive day. I woke up at 7ish and then made some breakfast. I decided that I had enought time to take a shower and get ready for the day to begin. I really had no idea that today would be one of the longest days of my life. 

work seemed like it was going to be fairly normal. i mean how normal can it be for me? i have onl been working there for a week, wel i guess it is not that complicated of a job. I clean cars and drive places, wow,right? i know i shouldnt piss and moan about a 12 hour day but seriously? the last time I worked seriously was in june and that was an easy job as well. I give props to all of the people who have to do this all the time. especially people who have been at a job for 10s of years.

how completely lazy do i seem right about now. I mean, you have to give me credit, I stuck it out and got the job done. I also did good at work. i kid i kid, i did bust ass today though. I guess this is just a shameful plug about how i am being responsible and how it really is not that bad.

birthday party

today we celebrate the 1 year birthday of my neice adisen. im totally getting trashed at her party.

ok today I completed my 5th day of work and let me tell you that it has been magic since i have started. Not only do I work at a great job, I also work with some of the best people I have ever worked with. The hours are nice and i get to watch people travel all day. Granted that makes it sound like I am a complete stalker but it is fun to think of where everyone is going and where they are coming from. 

the other day I was pulling a car to port and there was a man standing outside and he was of the asian persuasian. I knew as soon as I got out of the car he would greet me. I was like hey how are you and he looked as if I had shot his daughter in front of him. He told me that it was disrespectful for korean outh to not greet the older generation in such an improper manner. I decided to do the right thing and turn around and get on with my life. I mean really? korean? me ?

I can see hispanic, hell i will take the occasional hawaiian. but korean? I need to start wearing feathers in my hair or something up in this bitch.

another blog, another day

ok I have tried numerous blogs and I really do not have the ability to stay commited to one for too long. I think that I will try and maintain this one for a while. we will see how it goes.